
Her deep sighs interrupted only by the audible shattering of her heart, she tells herself that she must continue to get out of bed each morning, must continue to live. But it is a fight, a never-ending struggle that is gradually breaking her spirit and confining her to the bed she has known since childhood. The safety of sleep surrounding her, she could happily stay in this sanctuary of familiarity and unwashed cotton forever. Her body swims inside the most ridiculous, non-matching pair of over-sized sweatpants, and a crumbling old t-shirt with ripped seams and mysterious holes. It is her new uniform. It smells. She smells. She smells of failure, of exhaustion, of day-old heartbreak. She is musty and worn down, the colors of her soul having faded nearly as severely as those of her once red t-shirt. Drunk on a cocktail of false hopes and backward longings, she is without the ambition to even dress herself in fitting clothes. She is young and lazy and in love with her bed. Her terribly uncomfortable bed. The springs of the mattress jut into her tender, tired back, punishing her self-pity. Every movement of her body is answered with a great creak or groan from the old, unavailing metal coils. Her sheets bunch up like clumps of wilted flowers, dead, disappointing and void of the soft, gentle touch that she craves. They disobey her demands for smoothness, and their uneven terrain makes her angry, causing a fire to ignite within her chest. Her body snakes over the bed, restless. She is not resting, but yet she wants to stay. She wants to stay and complain about the wonderful, blissful discomfort of her mattress, rather than risk another slap in the face from the cold world that lies outside her thin and wooden bedroom door.
Photo by Lastexit
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